Hi.. I am here to speak my heart out. I am a 25 year old guy from India. I have faced a lot of things in my life. I have gone through success and failures. But what makes me really sad is the fact that I haven’t been able to learn from my mistakes. I was a very bright kid at school till my 12th. I scored really very good marks and everyone in my family and friend circle saw me as someone who would do well in higher studies. But I chose a course which is very tough and required a lot of hard work and dedication even for a brainy. And one main mistake I did was to skip the regular graduation in pursuit of this tough course. Unfortunately, my miseries started in the very first year. I started feeling very lazy. I was not able to concentrate and focus onto the studies. The deep desire inside every teenager started occupying my mind and I started getting curious about the s***** world. I started watching p***, reading e***** stories and would fantasize almost every beautiful women I met or saw. Soon I was lost in this new world of mine and before I could realize it was too late. I had lost all the interest to study. But fortunately, I was able to clear the first level of exams. This made me move to a new city. But even in the new city, with a lot of freedom and better access to internet, my fantasies just found new leaps and bounds. I started chatting on stranger websites posing as a women. Soon I ended up roeplaying with them, and most of the time it was related to i*****. I became so possessed by the thought of i***** that I started getting addicted to it. All the porns I would watch were related to i***** themes, and all the roleplays I would do faking as a women were based on i*****. Soon came the final level of my exams.. which turned out to be a disaster. Even after trying to clear it multiple times, I ended up failing. Mainly because I was just not able to study. I wasted the most precious years of my life. I don’t know what to do. I plan a lot to change my habits but as it turns out, I get more addicted to it. I feel like my life is going nowhere. All my friends are getting settled in life but I don’t what I am doing. I just cannot do anything well.