im always h****.whenever i feel i want to have s**,im gonna go to the bathroom and m********* at there . im gonna use a height pressure of water to feel ticklish around my v***** or im gonna read mature novel or manga to m*********. after that, i feel shame and guilty. i dont think i can tell anyone. beside, my family is a religious people, so i think they might freak out if they know about this.what should i do?how can i control this feeling? it seems like i dont have control over my body!!!