I’m saying this out loud because the only two people that I trust could never handle this s***, they would think I’m a b**** or something, which I would hate myself for, so I just don’t tell them.. Anyways,
1.I like the guy that everyone of my friends hate. (I don’t know how I like him myself.)
2.I just started self-harm. I wish I wouldn’t have but not even music has helped me.
3.Deppression came back.
4.My friends see me hyper, funny, loud, cute, weird, random and everything, but I hate every single thing about myself.
5.I don’t see why people say everyone is beautiful, I you saw me, you’d be scared for life.
6.Don’t try to make me feel better, I’ll just get deppressed again.
7.I hate the guy everybody loves, he’s so full of himself, he’s a d***, he’s unrespectful, he’s mean, he always wantes attention, he’s always complaining about his life when he has EVERYTHING. NO F****** PROBLEMS IN HIS LIFE, NONE.
8.I act nice but my mental opinions would get you soooooo mad.
9.I hate one of my bestfriends. ALL SHE EVER DOES IS COMPLAIN, BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH, SHUT THE F*** UP!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU LITTLE B****. I KNOW YOU LOVE THAT BAND. I KNOW YOU WANT A F****** HORSE. I KNOW YOU JUMPED THIS WEEKEND. I KNOW YOUR SISTER WAS ANNOYING YOU THIS MORNING, SHE DOES IT EVERY F****** DAY!! JUST SHUT UP, YOU UNGRATEFUL B****. WE ALREADY TOLD YOU YOU’RE NOT OVER WEIGHT, MORE THAT 1000 TIMES, LITERALLY. DON’T BELIEVE US? FINE!! CONSIDER YOURSELF OBESE, I DON’T GIVE A S*** ANYMORE.
9.I curse more than I should.
10.I want to be skinnier, I can’t lose weight though.. I lived healthy for more than 2 months and I looked like I was getting fatter..
11.I know, so much irony in 8 and 10, but I’ve NEVER told anyone that I feel fat or that I want to be skinny.
12.I’m afraid of more things than I should be..
13.I hate my other friend too. We had to investigate about different types of music. She got rock, I got heavy metal. I absolubtely ADORE both types of music. I’m the only girl I know of that actually listens to it, the other girls are just wannabees (they like f****** JUSTIN BEIBER when they apparently like F****** METALLICA.) Anyways, she listened to ONE rock song and she goes: OH I LOVE ROCK! And I say: Oh cool! Which bands? She goes: Oh I only like one song :)!!! I’m standing there thinking: B****, then you dont like rock, you like a song. Shut the f*** up. Then after ONE HOUR of reaserch on rock, this b**** tries to lecture me on it, then when I say that she’s wrong on something she says: No, you’re wrong, gosh ____, I’m the one investigating on it!! I’m thinking: WHAT THE F***? ARE YOU SERIOUSLY TRYING TO LECTURE ME ABOUT A GENRE OF MUSIC THAT I’VE BEEN LISTENING TO SINCE I WAS 5 BUT THAT YOU’VE BEEN READING ABOUT AN HOUR AGO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! THE F*** DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!?!?!?!?! This b****. THEN MY OTHER FRIEND IS LIKE: Yeah _____, we’re the ones reading about it! I keep thinking: WHAT? YOU TOO?? OH HELL TO THE NAW, ONLY CUS WE’RE IN SCHOOL GROUNDS AND CUS YOURE MY FRIEND, I’M NOT SHOVING MY FIST UP YOUR A**.
Anyways, I have more but I’m getting mad.
