A friend of mine from high school that I was wild about then committed suicide mid July. A few months prior a mutual friend if ours came into work and we got together and it gradually became a regular thing…. I am assuming she and Sean were somewhat still in contact via FB. I retracted from FB about 3 years ago… All the people I went to HS with were completely out of touch with me and I them. If only for the sheer fact they ran into me in person I would only then acknowledge them. Our 10 year HS reunion was on the 15th. He ran off the roof of a garage parking lot and fell to his death and was found sometime in the early hours of the 16th.

So… This girl and everyone he knew, knew I was insane over him but after being pushed away for so long I eventually moved on and hadnt been in touch with him on a day to day basis. The last time I spoke with him in person was last May. Something told me to go and see him and check on how he was doing…. His dad broke his neck in October and I left flowers on his door step and a $15 gc to Starbucks so we could go talk abou5t life or if not me then someone he was comfortable with….

Well I’ve been living with another guy for 3 nows. Right around the time I decided that FB wasn’t a necessity for having a happy life.

Well I am not engaged to him. I believe she told sean somethung like that and that lie may have had to do something with his decision as I refused to go to HS reunion as well. U was told he was and wasn’ there. He had a lot of bad going on in his life. He was pushed to the edge metophorically by all the stresses he was under. I was told his mother might have had to do something with it. At the wake, a mother of another mutual friend of ours sat next to me. I asked her if she was aware of why. She told me his ex boyfriend was engaged. And it was a major reason behind it….

This chick I’ve been spending time with
has had two abortions. She said she hadn’t talked to him since she was 22. But out if no where she calls me and talks about this guy a week before reunion at random… She probably told him about my living situation. The guy I live with is not my fiancée and never ever f****** will be. I cant stand him half the time and I live with him because I cammot afford to live on my own without my family here. I wish I had gone. I wish I knew the reason. But if that b**** said that I was engaged and thats the reason…I want the world to know it. She threw the fetus in the dumpster….no remorse. She didn’t cry at the funeral…nothing. The b**** was so emotionless. I just helped get get a job at where I work…
After our friends death I have been so emotionally derailed and I am trying to keep it together.
He was a good person.