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I’ve been with my boyfriend for 10+ years. I’ve lied, cheated, ruined my career & almost Lost my child due to addiction beginning from pain after re-breaking my back with a disease having my son. While I’m a recovered addict from the drug I can’t control, & am a good mother, I’ve never regained my career & have been well taken care of & supported in every way possible by my bf whom stood by me & the best good human being I’ve ever met, let alone believed could exist. I met someone 3 years ago & moved coincidentally only very close to him last year. We say we’re best friends, we do have the benefits going on as well for a long time now with my boyfriend away constantly, & I believe he’s the love of my life. We’ve not said anything but how we love & care for each other & are twins almost in every way, but never did the whole confession that I’m IN love with him, & I believe he’s in love with me. I can’t leave my bf. He’s supporting both my son & I, is his father figure & best role model for him & has proven he won’t abandon me, which is my biggest hang up having been abandoned many times without reason &/or abused by those I’ve loved. Having seen how self destructive I am & not ok having too much freedom & needing to have someone to account to, I stay. My twin is not able to support me in the lifestyle I want, he & I would be both amazing & bad influences on each other as well. But all I do is want to be able to confess how much I love this other man to him. And not feel horrible I do. He says I’m the smartest woman because he knows what my bf provides for me & what is bad with him for me & believes that’s why we met, he gives me everything I don’t get from my bf & he won’t risk being in relationship after losing his fiancé to cancer so he has me to be his in his heart & his best friend for life. But if he could provide what I want for myself & son I know I would be with him forever & happily. I believe I’m being blessed & punished for my past by having him & suffering not being able to be with the one man I know can love me for all I am & am not.

New Confession

One of my aunts came down after my dad died to help around the house and my mother was coming in my bedroom a lot and my aunt ask her what was she doing in my bedroom so much. Well my mother told her the truth of what we were doing and she said that she wanted some too. This is the aunt I never would want to cheat on her husband and she told my mother that she wasn’t getting at home and she wanted to try me out. So my mother asked me if I wanted to give her a shot and I said yes. She dressed up very s*** and came in my room. We started slowly like kissing and very little touching. Then I put my hand on her p**** and slowly started to rub her c*** and then more and then one finger went inside her and then two. She took of her underwear and opened her legs for me and then I went down on her and her husband never did that to her amd I even rimmed her a**. She started to c** and I put my lips right over her lips and started sucking her c***. Her c** was all over my face and then she guided my c*** deep inside of her and that’s when we first did it I was f****** her and pounding her really hard I couldn’t help it she was the one that I never thought I would have s** with out of the whole family of my mom’s she was so dedicated to her husband and I knew that and I asked her if it’s okay if we keep doing this while she’s here and she said yes she wanted me to come inside of her as much as possible to get her pregnant and I asked her if the if she gets pregnant will you know it was me or somebody down here she said yes you’ll know it was somebody he just don’t know who but I want to have s** with you everyday now I’m going to be here a whole month so we’re going to f*** every single day I told her okay she wanted to have my baby and I was going to give her one and my mom kind of disagreed with that but it happened I got her pregnant and when she went back home she was pregnant with my baby but nobody ever knew except for my mom and my aunt and me she had a little baby girl and her husband thought it was his cuz they did fool around a couple of times right after me and her did so he thought it was his which is a good thing but the next time she came down the little girl wasn’t that little anymore she was already 8 years old and her mother and I did it again and she asked me if I would do the daughter too so I did I did my own daughter I ate her out I fingered her a lot just getting her ready for my c*** and I did I spent a whole day with her in my bed f****** her every which way and she loved it we fucked with the rest of the time that they were here which was 3 weeks and I fucked that little girl so much every day it was at least five times a day that we fucked and we fucked in every single room in the house and I got her pregnant at the age of 9 years old she just turned nine when she got pregnant when I got her pregnant it was her birthday down here so that was her birthday present at 9 years old.

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