I just want to confess some things. I used to go to school and I uh. I am a liar. I sat and I uh I just sat and listened to others in the classroom and let them talk and talk and talk. I judged and thought they deserved what they got. I wished harm and evil upon them. I also never talked and was afraid of being judged. I just want to say that I also judged and wished harm on my brothers gf. I just want to say that I used to hate her so much. So so much. But I always pretended that I liked her and I think she did the same. I also want to say that I never forgave her for her personality. I just want to say that I am thinking too many comebacks to say to her and wanting revenge. I also just don’t know how to handle the situation. In school people would talk about s** and there was a lot of hate so much. Fighting and so much gossip. I also just sat and listened. Why did I do that? I don’t know what else to say. I thought I didn’t need anyone. So I just ignored everyone. And i just feel really bad about it. I mean the teachers would always get mad at the students and they didn’t teach right. I also believe that everyones bad and that I’m a victim but I know I shouldn’t be that way. I also am afraid to be myself and I think so many negative thoughts about myself and others. I don’t know how to handle hating people and hating my own family and much more hating myself for not being a certain way. I also just want to say that nothing majes me happy anymore. Not even people or food. I just feel that complaining isn’t right but I just don’t know anymore can I just say that I s***? I’m not even tired right now I shpuld be asleep but I sleep all day and think negativley about everything.