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I don’t know if I’ve been giving the feeling that I only treated you as a good friend. But I grew to like you over the months and I know it is not simply just another infatuation. I may seem nonchalant but I really do care about you just like how you care about me. Somehow I was afraid that the way I treated you made you felt like I just wanted to be friends, but in fact I was hoping you will just tell me how you feel about me. The sudden idea of yours…wanting to be my best friend and all just sounded too ridiculous. It felt like as if you think that you stood no chance so the closest way to be with me is to be my best friend. But hey, being a guy and a girl, it is really hard to have platonic relationships. I do not know how this ‘bff’ thing is gonna last…I am even sorry for being frustrated at you during the times when we have this so call ‘bff’ talk. But I really cannot help it when we have to treat each other like good friends when we could be possibly more than that.

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i want to end myself and i have suicidal thoughts thinking how should i die (i often think about hanging) and i imagine myself when i am doing the deed. i have fallen quite low and it is hard to stand up again. i have been having family issues (mainly with my dad) aside from my own personal problems. even if i vent this to someone, i know that their words are not enough. it is unfortunate for me that i got the miserable version of life haha… maybe if i was more pleasant, people would’ve treated me differently and my father wouldn’t even verbally abuse me. i have been like this for months now. some days i feel better but once triggered, everything comes back and i am miserable again. i really don’t want this life and the urge to end it is very strong. i have fallen out of my faith in God so to end this all, i think i should end the root of everything which is me because i realized that i might be the problem. that is all.

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i want to end myself and i have suicidal thoughts thinking how should i die (i often think about hanging) and i imagine myself when i am doing the deed. i have fallen quite low and it is hard to stand up again. i have been having family issues (mainly with my dad) aside from my own personal problems. even if i vent this to someone, i know that their words are not enough. it is unfortunate for me that i got the miserable version of life haha… maybe if i was more pleasant, people would’ve treated me differently and my father wouldn’t even verbally abuse me. i have been like this for months now. some days i feel better but once triggered, everything comes back and i am miserable again. i really don’t want this life and the urge to end it is very strong. i have fallen out of my faith in God so to end this all, i think i should end the root of everything which is me because i realized that i might be the problem. that is all.

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