I am afraid. Terribly afraid. Gripped with fear but I think I’m going to do it anyway…everything else be damned. I have fantastic boyfriend whom I have been with for 4/5 years and he and I are heading down the marriage and settling down route.

But I am going to jump ship…I just can’t do it. I’m not ready for it..I’m not ready for that adventure and well…we are not living together and have been living away from each other due to working situations and I feel like we have built a distance between us..I am not close to him as I was and I feel like a single woman and…I love him and I respect him but..I like being single..for the moment…

I just don’t know how I am going to tell him. I do not want to hurt him and I know I could be making the biggest mistake of my life but I also know that this nagging voice has been pulling me towards it for a long time now and I think it is just fear holding me back and the fear of not wanting to hurt him. He is a gorgeous man. ….so that’s what’s turning over in my mind people…any advice???