So I’m going to start off by saying that I have a girlfriend who I have cheated on but that isn’t what this is about. SO she knows I did and though things were shaky things are back on track but there was this other girl i knew my best friend for years before I met my girlfriend. Thing is after what happened my girlfriend, who i will call Maya, didn’t trust my friend, who i will call Margret. Thing was even though Margret was my friend she had so many problems that she came to me with and i always tried to help but it got to the point where it was frustrating being woken up in the middle of the night to help with her problems. Maya could see this and told me to cut my ties with Margret but I couldn’t I had known her for so long that it wasn’t right. Then things got worse me and Maya started to fight a lot she was always angry and she forced me to get Margret out of the picture…so i did.
But I was so heartbroken over it, she tried to fix things and told Margret why I had done it. And she came back but Maya was upset at having to bring her back that she tried killing herself, then it came to the point where she made me choose…Maya (my girlfriend) or Margret (my best friend) and well I chose Maya. I left my best friend of, god 4-5 years for a girl I knew less than a year…
Anyway Maya and I have been together for a little over a year and just a few days ago I get a message from Margret, who I haven’t heard from in awhile, god she was in such bad shape she was broken over what happened and she told me the obvious “If Maya really loved you, she wouldn’t have made you choose..” It’s true…I knew it in my heart it was true ,then she dropped a bomb on me and told me she loved me since we broke up (me and Margret dated for a week before we broke it off) and I was shocked. But now there’s just this thing eating away at me on the inside, do I ignore my best friend to stay with my girlfriend or do I bring this up to my girlfriend and risk losing everything I have for the sake of my best friend. Honestly I don’t know what to do I was acting so distant yesterday with my girlfriend I’m surprised she didn’t notice but I just need help there’s no one else I can go to with this please I just need some advice. I’m scared, I’m not afraid to say it, I’m scared to be alone I don’t want to ignore my friend and something happen down the line and lose my girlfriend and be alone, but I also don’t want to bring it up and loose my girlfriend and have my friend not be there after doing it for her. Please I don’t know what to do…