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This is nothing, I’m not asking for help it’s just been on my mind and I want to get it out.

I got invited to go camping for 3 days by a lake starting tomorrow by this girl (who I’ve been into for a year) and her boyfriend. But I know I’m gonna feel so lame just third-wheeling for them for 3 days. But if I don’t, I know I’m missing out something huge. I’ve always wanted to go camping since forever and I feel like it’s gonna be a great experience and something to write about (I really wanna write about camping and lakes and crap). Coincidentally I’ve been listening to this one album all week and all it’s about is girls, lakes and camping. And I’ve got a feeling something big might happen between me and her.

So either way I’m going to regret it somehow.

Anyway, I said no and I’m not changing it. I just have to deal with my thoughts telling me that I shoulda said yes.

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i want to end myself and i have suicidal thoughts thinking how should i die (i often think about hanging) and i imagine myself when i am doing the deed. i have fallen quite low and it is hard to stand up again. i have been having family issues (mainly with my dad) aside from my own personal problems. even if i vent this to someone, i know that their words are not enough. it is unfortunate for me that i got the miserable version of life haha… maybe if i was more pleasant, people would’ve treated me differently and my father wouldn’t even verbally abuse me. i have been like this for months now. some days i feel better but once triggered, everything comes back and i am miserable again. i really don’t want this life and the urge to end it is very strong. i have fallen out of my faith in God so to end this all, i think i should end the root of everything which is me because i realized that i might be the problem. that is all.

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i want to end myself and i have suicidal thoughts thinking how should i die (i often think about hanging) and i imagine myself when i am doing the deed. i have fallen quite low and it is hard to stand up again. i have been having family issues (mainly with my dad) aside from my own personal problems. even if i vent this to someone, i know that their words are not enough. it is unfortunate for me that i got the miserable version of life haha… maybe if i was more pleasant, people would’ve treated me differently and my father wouldn’t even verbally abuse me. i have been like this for months now. some days i feel better but once triggered, everything comes back and i am miserable again. i really don’t want this life and the urge to end it is very strong. i have fallen out of my faith in God so to end this all, i think i should end the root of everything which is me because i realized that i might be the problem. that is all.

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