I have this fear/feeling that no matter what Happens or how many friends I get, no one will understand me at all. Ever since primary school and bullying I haven’t been able to trust people easily. I mean I went to high school last year and my closest friends there still only know half of who I am. I am scared that I won’t be able to trust anyone enough to tell them everything about me. To enjoy talking about the stuff I keep hidden from others. I have tried so hard to be open up to people but every time I do they always stab me in the back. And it hurts… A LOT. I fear that how untrusting I am is going to ruin any relationship I have because they think I’m being distant or dishonest or because I start somehow keeping myself from them. If I can’t make friends that I would trust with my life how will I get someone to truly care for me??