I’ve lost one sister to a wreck, I’ve lost the other to drugs and mental illness. I’ve lost my father to alcohol. Actually, he was never there. My mother, who was mentally ill, was never there either. You could say my childhood was none existent. Due to these complications I’ve grown up with as a child, I have no idea how to be a normal human with others. So the concept of friends, goes right over my head. I freaked out when I thought my pet was hurt because I couldn’t handle losing another. Video games, working, music, nothing helps. I feel like any interaction with me from others, is forced and a burden on their part. I can’t help it, its hard to rewire what you’ve grown up with after all.