I was raped at a very young age by my two cousins (when I was between the ages of four and six). I get very turned on by the thought of a man brutally r***** another man and by the thought of men having s***** torture inflicted on them. When I hit puberty I had serious thoughts of getting a s** change (I was so afraid of being s******* assaulted as a woman), pumping a bunch of iron, hunting both of them down and torturing the both of them until they’re completely mentally broken.

They both are very, very f****** lucky I haven’t made my move yet.