I have a huge weight on my consciousness. I want to let it out but I don’t want to get in trouble. I just want help…but people like me don’t deserve help. They don’t get help. They either kill themselves after years of struggling or destroy someone else’s life because they are too selfish and then hopefully spend the rest of their lives rotting in a dark cold room. If I talk to anyone I will become a pariah. No one will ever be able to look at me again. No therapist would want a disgusting p************ like me. They would probably kick me out before I even finish saying the words. I make myself feel sick to my stomach. I’m disgusting. If you’re reading this, make whatever assumption you want an then comment telling me how much of a horrible worthless p************ I am. I certainly deserve it and I want to make myself feel bad because I deserve it for existing. Do your worst, internet trolls.