I’m thinking of breaking my 3 month sobriety to just let loose and attempt to have some fun. Just weighing out the pros and the cons. Pros: This could be whats becoming one of the rare occasions where I leave a good impression on people of being fun and amusing, keep them engaged in conversation with me and make dozens of new friends like I did a long time ago. This might be one of the times I don’t over do it and remember everything and not drink well past my limit. I no longer have a whiny boyfriend nagging at me not to do it and then bothering my friends and getting them all worried. Cons: This might be one of the occasions where I get drunk too quickly, and drink way too much and become incoherent and make my friends worry. I might black out and pee on myself and eventually pass out not knowing what happened. Not only that but once I start I can’t stop drinking for at least a good 4 days -2 weeks straight. Reason I’m even considering this: I’m bored, just got out of a break up and don’t want to think about him. I just want to loosen up a bit, listen to some good music and stop being so anxious around people. Tired of holding back, always feeling like I’m never my true self and have to calculate everything I say. Things are never fun anymore, at least when I’m buzzed in my mind things feel pretty fun and enjoyable even if its for a little while. I just don’t know if I should go through with this.