I don’t even know where to begin… (sighs) I feel so overwhelmed with responsibility, I don’t think my shoulders could bear the weight anymore. I need to let it out. I’m afraid of telling my closest and dearest friends and family. Everyone seems to look up to me because of my profession. Everything is always my responsibility. My job, as a role model. But you know what?! F*** ALL OF YOU!! At 23 years of age who has to go through all these responsibilities. Why do I have to be liable? Why do I have to sacrifice? Even someone who I dearly love and regret. I am missing him every minute of the day, suffocating. Dying to tell him but just can’t bring myself to. Because it all comes down to me, I had the chance but I didn’t grip tight enough. Now I’m paying for it through suffocation.