I hate you so f****** much.

I hate you for having the ability to make me feel happy and sad at the same time.
I hate you for making me weak at the knees when you do nothing at all.
I hate you for making me feel this way.
I hate you for not texting me like you used to.
I hate you for not texting me at all anymore.
I hate you for making me feel like a mountain on your radar when I was just a speck.
I hate you for making me feel like I was worth something to you.
I hate you for treated me like I was the only thing that mattered to you.
I hate you for taking me on my first date.
I hate you for saying beautiful things to me.
I hate you for acting like we could’ve had a chance.
I hate you for calling me beautiful.
I hate you for acting like you cared.
I hate you for letting me fall for you.
I hate you for choosing her over me.
I hate you for being the reason my wrists are always red.
I hate you for being the reason I drink all the time.
I hate you for being the reason I’m always in tears.
I hate you for making me miss you so much.

Most of all, I hate that after all you’ve done to me, I still love you with everything in my heart.

I hate you so f****** much