i like this girl right now and it s**** cause even though she lives in the same country i dont know her irl. we’ve talked some. i think she has a bf and i really want to tell her how i feel but i dont think she likes me that way. shes 3yrs younger then me so it kind of feels a bit wierd too and it s**** keeping this to myself. i hate being alone. ive been single all my life and its s****. i dont wanna die alone. time is passing and im getting older and eventually ill be too old. i dont want that kind of life. if im not in a relationship or married in 10 years then im just going to hang myself.