Sorry for my bad english but hope you understand.
Could anybody tell me wht to do?

I have this woman, i have had a crush in her like 9 month. We have been chatting the whole time.
maybe i start where we met.

She was with her father doing some renovation works in my workplace. Some painting and whole floor
laminated parquet. The whole time, she kinda looked at me, smiled. I just could not get my eyes off her.
I know, i’m a guy, who falls in love too fast and. Look me like you know me and i want to marry you.. but not this time. This is something more. More than i have ever felt before. I didn’t have the gourage to ask her real name, but my boss did that in exact time so i found out her first name. And later asked from boss the lastname. So i found her in facebook. Coworkers also noticed that we share looks and.. they kinda pushed me to contact her. Yeah, What’s the worst that can happen. So i did. And she actually accepted my request. We started writing to each other. But funny thing was.. she was still doing some jobs around my work place and we didn’t talk in person then, just shared looks and smiled, because it’s so funny. We talked like old friends in FB. Since we went to Italy for company trip i bought some keychains and stuff from there.. and a necless. Yeas, Silver neckless with an ornament because she likes that spiritual thing. And it wasn’t cheap. So After they had done they’r work and finished i wrote her in couple of days that i would like to get her the thing i got for her. So i drome 35 miles to her hometown and finally she called me and gave me directions. We met, talked. I gave her the keychains and all. We talked some more and at the end, when i was leaveing i gave her the neckless. Then i sayd goodbie and left, because i was affraid of the reaction. She was stunned, because of what she wrote. No no, it wasn’t bad things but she told me that i should have not got that for her. Actual quote: Who am i to you, that you get me thing like this? I told that, when i saw it it was like your name was written on it, so i just had to get it. We wrote more in fb, and one day she wrote, that it was beautiful and she will ware it. Days went by and i don’t know in witch point we actually stopped writing to each other. I read some article where was told, stop writing to her and if she will write to you, things are getting serious. We actually din’t write to eachother almost a month. There wasn’t a day, when i didn’t think of her, but article is an article so it must be true. And one day. i just went to FB and browsed around her profile and BAM. Letter from her. And we started talking again. In that time we got together in daytime and went to eat, talked face to face witch was kinda awkward because i had no idea what to talk to her, but we managed. She always looked into my eyes. Deeply i mean. I look at her, face red like a trafficlight. She actually asked couple of times what i’m blushing about. So months went by and we actually started meeting more and more. In one day, she had to get into other city in morning to go to work with dad. So i offered her to stay at my place overnight and take her to buss station in the morning to go to works. Bus was leaving in the vary morning like 7:30AM or so. When my alarm clock was ringing and i told that we shoudl get up, otherwise we will not make it. She told me: It’s ok, and kept looking me into my eyes untill i fell asleep again. We slept till 10AM and then woke up. I remembered that i bought whitebread and ham for morning mkeal and we were talking back then how i would bring her morning coffe and brakefest. So i did. Made coffe and some snaks. Took them to her while she still was in bed. She was amazed and surprised. But remembered we had a talk about this. She went on the late bus this time so she got to work like in 6pm or something. Good thing her boss is her faher. So next weekend she came back. On Sunday again i told that she could stay and she came again. This time we had some wine, strawberrys and whiped cream. She actually didn’t belive this from me, but since we talked about this in some day and i always do what i say i will do. While we were in bed, she asked for strawberrys and i got them for her. She fed me some. Asked to take a bite and ate the other half and so on. Again, she didn’t want to wake up in 6AM. since i was a little awake from the ringer, and i thought it was a good time to start like.. poking her and so on. She asked: You want to cuddle? Go ahead. So i didn’t let her to tell me twice. We got out from the bed i think in 1PM. We spent some time shopping for a winter jacket for her but din’t find any good ones. So she went on the bus again to work. Again 6PM. The wery same weekend she had a birthday coming on sunday. Since we were talking about earrings, because she had some new holes made. I bought her a couple, but she insisted from me to not get anything. You know women right. But i bught them actually before she told me not to get anything. I would not retun them and still plaaned to gave her the earrings. She wasn’t abe to come on sunday but she came in monday, because they took a free week from work. I took her for dinner, we walked. Later we had a wine in my place. I gave her the earring and she was surprised. She told me again, she didn’t ask for them but i told her i got them earlier so she eventually accepted them. She went home this night because i had to go to work on tuesday. We chated the whole night and eventually when i told her i go to bed, she called me. So we spent over hour on phone.
We chated the whole tuesday and when i finished my work and got home, i asked, if she want’s something to eat. She said yes and i went to get her again. She again stayed the night. And this time without asking me first we cuddled. At this point i have to say: We never had s**, because it’s not my style. I want to make love not just f*** her right in the p****. I need that guarantee that it’s just not s**. So on next day in morning we talked and she actually told, she didn’t want to go home. So i told, if im able to get a free day or a swap i woiuld be home as soon as i can. I was able to switch the day and got back home. We spent a nice day together. After dinner we got back to my place. Watched some tv and talked a little. Actually i saw how she was like closeing up oir something. Like she had something hard to tell me and could not tell me this. I lighted up the fireplace.

I remember, that when she wrote me again couple moth ago and asked if i’m seeing someone and when i asked her she sayd with a long pause: yes. She actually never told any more information about this guy or anything. But after all the talks we had. We talked about the s**. Almost every litle time our talk went kinda left side. SO i thought she was tring to mess with me and get some more attention. So i gave it to her. After the recent cuddling and all i thought that was the deal.

But in that night after i lighted the fireplace she came and sat next to me. Withut looking me in the eyes she started talking:
You know, i told you i’m seeing someone, don’t you. I told you.
Actually you could hear the silence. My heart skipped like 5 ticks.
She added: I din’t want to actually tell you then, when we met because i thought i might lose you then.
Remember when i told you that i was seeing someone? That i had someone.
I asked: When did you meet him? Before we met? Because you told me couple of month ago that you had someone.
After long pause she replied that she had a relationship before we met. She added: You are the dearest to me, and i don’t want to lose you. But i understand if this will happen now.
Since i dont’ want to lose her, i told it’s ok. That i was considering this option. I remember that you told you had a relationship. But your recent actions and the way you look and talk to me made me think that you actually werent seing someone.
After a longest 5 minutes in my life she started to talking again. We managed to talk thing out and we agreed that we will not lose contact. I’s ben couple of days for now, that we had the talk. I don’t know what is happening to me, but in some time i think of her like a friend and we talk like we used to. Well with less steering to the left aka s** talk. But when she told me yesterday that she is not home alone.. i idna collapsed again. I cant get the picture out of my head, that this other guy is banging her. The day his boyfriend came home, tight in the moment he walked into her door, she told wrote me: Remember what i told you? Remeber? Promise?
I told her i promise. Later that night we actually talked what i was promising and what she was talking about. She wanted me to promise i will never forget that she still thinks that i’m the dearest to her. She doesn’t want to lose me. Dearest: Lets say Important. yea, this is better translation for what she sayed.
After the same night her boufriend went to bed but she stll watched the tv and we could talk some more. She told me that she would take me, if there would not be this situation. That i’m the nicest guy she knows, and every girls dream.

And at this point i’m unable to think anymore. I don’t know what to do or what to think. I know her boyfriend will be leaving again tomorrow (the next day i’m writing this here). Then we are able to write more again. She just is such person that she even didn’t answer phonecalls and answered FB messages while we were together. That’s why we can write like 2 times and hour right now. But.. i don’t know what to do right now. Shall i wait or move on? Move on to what? Where? I’m not the nicest looking guy and never been. Damn i’m 28 and in 2 month i’m 29. I only have had a relationship like once and it lasted 4 month. It want me or the girls fault we broke up. In this i have to blame my parents. Thjey made us broke up. MY PARENTS. I haven’t told them yet but i still find them responsible for this bakeup. But. In that situation. What should i do now? I need some advise. I just cant forget her like that. I don’t want to forget her. Please help me someone. Give me some good words. Make my day a little brighter.