I could never tell him to his face, but I'm not in love with my boyfriend anymore. It's been a really long time since I've felt anything for him other

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I could never tell him to his face, but I’m not in love with my boyfriend anymore. It’s been a really long time since I’ve felt anything for him other than contempt. He has lied too many times and picks fights over such trivial things. It’s exhausting. I know I should leave him, but things are not always so black and white. I’m 36, and in this big city, I don’t feel like I can be financially stable. It frightens me. He’s not affectionate and doesn’t seem to care about it. On the rare occasion that we have s**, I find myself imagining he’s someone else. Maybe a hot celebrity? Maybe a cute guy at work? Maybe a random stranger? Or just imagine that he’s a guy who actually loves me for who I am and wants a happy life with me? I wish he would pay attention to my body. I want to be studied. I want a man who wants to know every part of my body and my mind. Not to sound conceited, but I’m quite beautiful and friendly. I just need a deeper connection in order to feel…well, WHOLE. Until then, I’ll continue coasting around through life; utterly incomplete.

New Confession

If you call yourself a Christian and want to witness to the world, you are not a Christian for calling out sin. You’re JUDGING and HARASSING . DON’T SAY ANYTHING UNLESS THEY ASK YOU! GIVE THEM THE FREE WILL TO CHOOSE. Yes,we don’t want sinners going to Hell. We know eternity is forever. Witnessing is NOT POINTING OUT SIN!!!! Being a witness is LETTING YOUR LIGHT SHINE before others. Invite them to church. They don’t come? That is their choice. POINTING OUT SIN ONLY DRIVES THEM FURTHER AWAY FROM GOD. Pointing it out is IRRITATING and UNNECESSARY. JUST WALK IN THE LIGHT and PRAY for them. LEAVE THEM ALONE. They will come to their senses at their own time. Yes,we are not promised tomorrow but POINTING IT OUT IS PUSHING THEM AROUND and PUSHING THEM AWAY.

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