I have made an attempt at suicide before. I chose drowning. Obviously, it did not work. I am grateful that I survived to experience the good things in life since then… but so many painful things have happened as well. I suffer from depression, and I am fully aware of how it screws with my mind, but it still does not remove the guilt and numbness I experience every day. I am constantly considering trying to die again, but in the end I know it will only cause trouble for others. I suppose I’ll just have to wait for an accident, or for my time.