I have obsessive thoughts about someone who does not seem good for me at all. I’m afraid I don’t even like him for himself, but am obsessed just cuz a) he’s the only one there and I’m a hermit due to social anxiety and b) his not pursuing me hurts my ego so I pursue him, hoping he’ll change his mind and thus affirm my ego that I am lovable. I feel like an emotional cripple and a very immature, selfish, unaware person.