I was with this guy for a really long time and we were dating. We dated for about a year and 5 months. Even though we broke up in March I still think about him. I still talk about him to my friends and I f****** hate it. I’ve come to the conclusion that I hate him and everything he did to me. You see the thing is I tell everyone that I hate him and I can say it to myself that I hate him,but I always seem to be either talking about him or thinking about him. I can’t f****** stand it man. If I hate him so much, why do I constantly think about him? Is it because I was in love with him? Am I still in love with him? I’m so confused. Nobody has helped me in this situation because I don’t f****** tell anybody about it in fear that they will call me stupid for even saying this or thinking about this. I made everyone believe that I hate him,but I don’t think I’ve made myself believe it because even though I can say that I hate him I’m not really so sure. Am I confused? What’s going on with me? I think I’m going crazy.