I hate life at this point.. My one and only love is slowly being stolen from me by a girl who was once my bestest friend, I get abused everyday by my grandmother, my self hatred has gotten to the point where I am now not giving one flying fudge about my health and because of that, I’m very sick and had coughed up blood just a while ago. I don’t want to get counselling mostly because… I can’t. If I were to say anything, I’d be in large amount of trouble… I keep trying to get help from others around me, but they told me to s*** it up and deal with it saying others have way more worse than me which just makes it worse.. I’m so done.