I feel I fucked up. I get so paranoid over subtle behaviour. We’ve been going out and living together almost 6 years. She’s threatened to leave twice now because she feels accused. I don’t blame her. I’m scared that if I try too hard, I’ll push her away and if I don’t try at all she’ll just leave. I’ve had a lot of bad relationships before, many unfaithful. I guess I am just really afraid it will happen again and I don’t want to be blindsided anymore. God I love her. I submit myself to her wholly. I’m so scared of losing her.