This sounds so stupid but i feel i need to let this out. My fiance’ rejects and neglects me too often. I tell him I need his attention and he doesn’t get it. He thinks he’s doing a great job w/me but he’s pushing me to go crazy. I stress to him that I NEED him to be affectionate I can’t take it. I cry often alone and anytime we miraculously have s** i cry hysterically after (I never did that before). He tells me its ok and blah blah but he’s clueless. Im tearing up right now typing this, no guy would understand. So one day I watched p*** alone just to feel the deep closeness. All it led to was me crying hard for about 30 min. and I felt like a loser. Sometimes I feel like I’m gonna die from a broken heart. Def. sounds lame but man it hurts to not feel loved.