It hurts to try and stay strong. I can’t show how I really feel. I have to cry myself to sleep most nights and do it silently so I don’t wake anyone. I’ve cut before and I remember how scared I was of myself, but how relaxing and good it felt. I knew it was wrong but I just couldn’t help the feeling. Most my friends noticed and asked what happened, but I just said it was my cat. I mean most of them have never owned one before so they wouldn’t know the difference. I just want to go some where by myself. No people, no technology just an empty space where I can just sleep and peacefully drift into an eternal sleep.
