I feel like my husband is cheating on me. I go through his phone and there are only 7 open message chats, 1 is mine, 1 is his sister, 1 is his nephew, 1 is his mom, the rest to friends, all male.

He does leave his computer unlocked and I do check his facebook and his emails. But his emails are like he doesn’t even open them. Of course there are the Spams with links to p*** sites but his internet history doesn’t indicate he looks at p***. He even lets me look at his bank account online and I don’t see anything ever to suggest he is hooking up. Mostly grocery store charges, Walmart, and maybe a movie here or there. But about 80% are days we went together and the rest are days he went because we needed something it I told him to go or it was raining or something. The last night he went to a club he actually called me at about midnight asking to find ride for him because he ‘got laced’ by guys he claims ‘were friends who never believed’ he never did drugs so he laced his food with a dash of weed claiming it to be oregano. A few days later a guy friend confessed that it did happen. But I still had a suspicion he cheated and the guy friend covered it up. Husband never spoken to those guys again apparently.

There is no proof he is cheating or talking to other women like flirting or cheating. But I can’t help but feel he is seeing this blonde chick on his FB page. It says she lives in New York and we live over a thousand miles away. They only message about music, the Raiders moving, and trash talking between the Lakers and another basketball team. He claims she knows he is married. But how would he know her if she is from NY? But he doesn’t there are no direct messages to her. It doesn’t look like he says she ‘looks fine’ or wants to ‘hook up’ and any messages seem sporadic.

He is mostly home because he can’t work right now and I’m on maternity leave. We don’t have a car and if he goes somewhere, he is usually back within 2 hours (he rides the bus and they give a two window for travel). Sometimes he leaves his phone (which is when I go through it). When he has his phone he usually messages me or calls asking if I want anything like food or additional grocery items. Most of the time I can hear the music in Walmart or the grocery store playing, the bus, or traffic on the street.

I have no proof that he is cheating and that is the exact reason I believe that he is cheating. Am I being paranoid?