My father is an addict and he used again because he lost his job. My mother is tired of living with so many people with problems (I suffer from depression and my brother has major anxiety issues). I’m sad and scared and frustrated, and for the first time in a very long while I have feelings I’m not proud of. I wish my father was not alive so that he would no longer be a stress or burden on my mother and our family. I wish that he wasn’t sick, but also that his sickness had killed him a long time ago… I feel terrible that I cannot do more for my family than what I am already doing, and that I can’t trust my father. I just want the hurt to go away. I don’t want to be scared and sad every time I come home. I don’t want to worry about my parents bills, or whether or not they can afford to keep me and my brothers in college. I’m just so scared…