I was in a relationship with this girl for two months. She left me a week ago, and things were extremely fucked up between us. I was getting more and more tired, and lonely. Well, she left me, but says it’s not over, that it’s just “complicated” for the moment and that when she’ll be done dealing with stuff, we might go back together. Every time I say “I miss you”, she sends a heart or a kiss, but never says she does too. She never says she loves me, and I’m not allowed to do anything, I’m a prisoner. The other day, I went out with this girl, as friends (really, no second thoughts), and we had an amaaaazing day. We are both feeling very lonely and we understand each other, she says that “I’m a fucked up version of her”. We got caught up in the romantic moment and kissed, twice. It felt amazing. I felt safe, and that for once in my life, someone really cares about me. But now it seems like my feelings for my ex have changed, it’s like I don’t care as much as I used to. I think I can finally see that she’s treating me bad. I’m scared, though. She’ll make my life a living Hell if she finds out what happened. But I’m not sure I fell out of love, I don’t know! I don’t wana lose her either. I can’t talk to anyone about this, I can’t trust anyone. So here I am, letting it out on simplyconfess.
