Back in 5th grade. This one boy in my class, I’ll call him “N”, after learning about ww2, while i was uncomfortable, just raised his hand and asked the teacher “ooh! Can i make a joke about the camps?” What the f*** is wrong with you. He then started begging. Thats not funny.
Timeskippp… to 6th grade. I’m reading a book about planes. I used to love them a lot. I still love planes.
N, along with another girl was near me. N asked, “what are you reading?” Which was a bit dumb cause the bold text on the cover read “PLANES” but ok..
Me, who was very happy, showed him the current page (it was p.132: The BF-109) And he, instead of asking me normally, yelled out, infront of other people in recess, “ISN’T THAT HITLER’S PLANE?” I swear my soul left my body, i felt uncomfortable for some reason. I yanked the book back, and i saw F (the girl) tell him that they should probably go away now.
extra lil experiences:
In 6th grade;
My friend, without knowing, raised her right arm in a Hitler salute while smiling. Despite me forcing her arm down. She eventually stopped, but this was also in recess….
I took German option (We could choose from 3 languages to learn) and i was minding my business. I was at the front of the class, listening to my teacher talk about Münich. I think she eventually told us why France was named “Frankreich” in German. If i remember, she said “Reich” meant “empire”.
Ok… I heard that word before in history! ^0^ very useful for me, thank you.
This girl. With no hesitation. No second thought. Not even a hint of doubt. Raised her hand, and even when the teacher didn’t call on her to speak, she immediately yelled out “ooh! Teacher, you mean third Reich right? Teacher, third Reich! Third Reich!” The way my soul, again, left my body. I looked behind me so fast i might have broke my neck, saw her smiling, heard the Italian kid say something to her, then i looked to the teacher and she seemed DISSAPOINTED. Deadass silent. Just looking at her. Looks might kill…!
basically. i keep getting reminded/haunted by history TO THIS DAYYY. Thank you for reading!

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Help please im entirely in love with my best friend and its under the literal worst circumstances!!! Basically the jist is she used to live with me and my family for a few years because of her being foster care with no out (both parents dead, dad she doesnt exactly know, her mom when they were both pretty young from a sudden stroke, i am fiercly protective of her and her peace because of this, not out of pity or that s*** but genuine love and friendship) with us being the best out of limited options, now my shithead little brother (was 14 at the time, is 16 now) decided 2 years ago it would be really quirky and manly and mature to confess to the traumatized girl who was way older than him (we were both 17, now both 19)… Gross as f*** right? Exactly. Anyways this caused massive chaos and her to move back to our hometown and in with a mutual friend, we are still very in touch and are planning to have her and our mutual friends out here this year while my brother is out in another town for like a month and a half. All happy and fun right? Wrong, you forgot im hopelessly in love with her. Now answer my riddles 1, what tf do I do??? This is divine torture I swear, im cursed or some s***. Anyways any thoughts, opinions or advice helps, im desperate, gay and autistic which is not a good trio. Oh also to add a bucket of cherries on top were traumabonded and a tiny bit codependent, we went through hell together, i cant lose her over a crush i would genuinely rather cut out my tongue.