i cant do this anymore…..

Wanting to kill myself – the first & last thoughts I have on some days.

I waited for my two friends to meet me at the gate, but one of them said that they were already in the building. I felt weird walking in by myself, a little bit because of my anxiety. I waited outside the door just to see if any one of...

i have to carry the weight of my world on my shoulders, and one day, I snapped at my best friend, but she doesn’t care and hasn’t spoken to me in a week. I didn’t try to manically explain myself because why would I? I know her almost better than...

Even though you are one of the bests you still need to struggle because of human psychology

I felt like you were laughing at me tonight or you think I’m a joke. That breaks my heart. I think the world of you. If you only knew. If you could read my mind

I wonder what it would take for me to attempt suicide.

As much as I love our time together as little as it may be at times I’m also suffering knowing it won’t ever be anything more than it is now.

PV,
Today was the day…. The day I realize that I’ll never be anything at all to you. That my love is never going to be enough. That I don’t even matter to you as a friend much less a lover.
I’ve spent so many years praying for...

im attracted to u more and more each week, yet I feel like im getting further apart from you. I feel like your losing interest in me, not willig to take things to another level, and i know this will only end badly with heartbreak and disappointment. I feel so...

I lost my friend almost 3 years ago. It’s just now dawning on me that I think I was in love…

Why couldn’t I be the one who got to mary her?? He don’t even deserve to have a second with her let alone having her hand and for a lifetime! I wouldn’t hesitate to swoop in and shove him out the picture if she was ok with that.

I feel like I am too much for everyone. I have gone through some things in my life that I felt changed me too fast. I don’t even know who I really am anymore. I grew up too fast and I feel like no one understands me.

So often I imagine myself dying and thinking it would be the easiest way to solve so many problems and anxieties – but I’m not suicidal. I just imagine it happen naturally or by accident

another sad day same horrible boring routine. Kill me please please please. Seeing u for a few mins once a week has become the sad highlight of my awful life.

this is the worst birthday of my life i’m living abroad away from my family at a boarding school where everyone hates me because they think i’m weird and i hate myself for that too and my favorite person died and i can’t call her and i miss her especially...

I’m never getting better. There is no happy future that I have been looking forward to my whole life. I know I won’t live long past 18, but I don’t know how to get the few people that care about me to hate me. Being an a****** to my close...

My dad is 76. I’m 28. He’s had 3 wives married 3 times, my mom is his current wife and none of these ppl believe in condoms or abortion. My oldest brother is 52. Full head of hair. Anyhow he’s 76 and has a full beard and full head of...

My partner has BPD. I knew this in the beginning of our relationship, and i though it would be fine because they handled it well. However, i am now learning that they have no idea who they are as a person and everything they portray themselves to be is a...

MY MOM WANTED ME TO KILL MYSELF
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I was mentally abused by my mom she used to say “I’m ugly” and I had a lot of acne my senior year of high school and she bought products for my face and got mad at me when they...

Just woke up not long ago & I already feel like killing myself.

ok here’s the thing about being unstable. people only reach out to you when you are not okay. but when you start being okay, they stop talking to you. it’s like the only reason you exist is to become their charity case. They give you hope but never follow up...

I feel empty inside . Today is my 2 month anniversary . I am an Indian girl . I married a guy who did not have good history . After our marriage was fixed , he told me his secrets and facts one by one . I was shattered but...

my boyfriend is really scared, bc he thinks I’m pregnant.
He’s telling me he’ll kill himself if I am. I hate that he does this, it’s so goddamn fucked up. I feel terrible! I even told him I would abort the baby but he still wants to “punish” himself...

Watch out the nutcase is back on here rambling again. Give a rest.

“Youth is hardly ever given a choice,pushed through the grind until they innocent fades away”, now i know what it truly mean and i regret every second i waste during my childhood.

I was groomed at 12. Had bad depression, talked to people online. Met a then 18 year old, who for 6 years worked on grooming me online to be their perfect partner. Finally got away from them when I was 19 and they were 25.
I was suicidal for...

love how i burned myself out and wasted a year of my life to the point of an anxiety disorder and depression symptoms and am still failing lol

Im really at the end. Im waiting for the time when im trully tired to end it all. I wish my parent would understand my feeling instead of pushing me to my limit and would stop comparing me with somebody else. I hate school. They laughing at me. Im starting...

She’s just not that into you.

That pos couldn’t get up to 80 you’ll be handcuffed to a bed.. waiting for the moment when what I told you will happen.. happens. You’ll act like a child. Ironic
I suppose, in the end.

Things have changed for the worst in recent years. I’m still struggling with the same issues I did in 2012, 2013. The pain in my heart and head has only grown.

I’m literally at my ropes’ end. I don’t see how it’ll ever get better from here on out. I think the only solution to end it all.

if things dont change soon im gonna kill myself. f*** this life. its just awful.

Promise me you’ll make it count. Promise me you’ll get sober, so I have no regrets. I eat to leave the world a better place for you.

I will protect you from the consequences of your actions… I’ll leave your web of lies undisturbed. I’ll be your martyr. Do not ever tell anyone the truth, or my sacrifice will have been for nothing. I love you. Goodbye. I hope you can carry the weight alone. The truth...

“You see, every day remains the same for me
I often wonder what it takes to just set me free
I stare into this dark abyss that I know is my life
No where to run, no where to hide, no way to cope or strife
...

Monday afternoon. Feel like killing myself as per usual starting right at the beginning of the week.

“desert night under lonely stars. crusing down the highway takes me farther from home. whiskey and regret… neither can erase the fact that i have done wrong. so now i’m on the run. the law is on my trail. let down the only girl that ever seemed to be the...

My house is pretty cold. I just had to s*** and I was wearing a onesie so I took it all off. Pooping when you’re cold is such a horrible feeling. It doesn’t feel right. I’m shivering.