Depression is consuming me. I am so sad . weary . I cant hide from that anymore . I don’t think I can keep the charade up. The fact I was intentionally tortured ..is killing me deep inside my spirit .

Therapy ? Never helped me. I take abilify and Prozac to help keep me sane and stable . but there is no magic pill or anything… That can ease the memories.

If you try to run away from the rage of pain within or hide from it, look what happens. It consumes everything in its path.

Memories that bubble up are like that Yellowstone park river . if you think you have any concept of control . think again .

They call it schizophrenia. But it isnt. Tortured isn’t a mental illness. Its a lifetime of hell.

I only have 3 people I can talk to in my life. My little sister, my mom, and my therapist. Now I only have my therapist.

I’m so alone. I’m so tired. I’m so empty.

Some memories are so horrific. It can kill. Drive a person insane.

There’s a reason why some memories are buried sooo deep . its the only way to survive. Intrusive thoughts and constant flashbacks ..make living life impossible.

Somethings aren’t worth remembering. Its too excruciating. Better off forgotten .

I cant forget . I cant erase every memory of abuse. I cant but want to wash away the memories that hurt the worst. But unable to. I feel stuck in a living hell of memories from hell. I relive it. Over and over. Unable to escape from my mind....

“i told u what it was” giggled LittleVoice “it’s a jew box” “it makes them remember”

I’d do anything to escape the memories of it all. I think death is the only way. I just want to stop this pain.

Truth is I have no desire to kill the sadistic controller. I actually want him to murder me. Finish the job you sick fuk. Just do it. Finish it.

After being hurt or abused , some of us truly want to die. People think we are survivors. But many aren’t . we just are good actors and actresses. TruThfully death is welcome .

I asked to be killed . I asked the controller . let me go.

Yes

Do you ever ask to die whenever someone deeply hurts you.

“she came from Oklahoma no she did not that’s derogatory against herself” “new girl in 2nd grade 1997*” behind this house*

You an the fairy squad.. Don’t deserve it.

Why is there a little speach bubble if there is no way to comment?

guys there is no way to comment shut the f*** up already

Ich bin ein gut aussehender junger Mann, der in Kansas City lebt, und ich muss ein schönes Mädchen finden, das ich heiraten und für den Rest meines Lebens lieben kann. Ich werde sie für immer lieben, ehren und schätzen.

Just like dis

You don’t even know how to comment yourself why did you pick beef with that person for no reason

Yeah I assumed you’re gender? Are you retarded or just stupid???

How to comment?

Just like your mom. So dumb so fun

That’s not a comment that a confession your Dumbass

How to comment??????????

Why is there a captcha

road to mi-no no Women become* Major Ready was bored 4 vlogs r bare went to “News”

I am so scared I will continue hating myself even after losing weight.

“I only give to these people” kitten. I never picked a cat up or had one. “They scratch” I liked dogs but like cats

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Perry Kalynuk

My boyfriend told me my NDE was just a dream . It wasn’t based in truth . What if he’s right ? Nothing was true or real? It’s just been a lie I believed in. I hope he’s wrong . He makes me feel doubts . What if he’s right...

25, watching my good mate fall in love. I’m not in love but I like him.but I also am old enough to know why never be a match coz he’s into different. Sp I’ll support him. And let my heart break because I’d rather that then ruin our friendship

what else was they doin. Snapchat link* that’s making the move on someone. I never.. Unsubscribed accident unfriends

they’re tied into some.. broken printer All that Pizza ordering didn’t get new one

loneliness will kill me soon