Whenever I see or think about a little boy or little boys being raped I always feel extremely h****, sometimes with the sensation that someone is having s** with me in my v*****. This always happens when I sleep and never when I am awake. I feel like I’M the one being penetrated. In real life I don’t have any h**** sensation during s** whatsoever and fake moans and lie that I’m enjoying it, etc. I know about a little boy who was raped and I was deeply traumatised that I could not do anything to stop it, called police and everything but till now the r***** still lives in the house with the boy. And for years I blamed myself, even fell into depression over the matter. Now I have dreams seeing the r***** and/or boy who was raped, for about 4 years now, maybe more. And I feel like I’m being penetrated, and I have a very h**** feeling in my v*****, and I never get h**** during real s**. Is my horniness caged by trauma? Is a piece of the boy living in me? What is going on? I have confessed and I want it to stop.

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