My brain’s dead weight. I’m trying to get my head straight but I can’t figure out which sister I want to impregnate. And my doctor said “Michael, you’re crazy.” I disagreed and he told me that I had to end my drinking habits. Well, since age 12 I felt like I’m someone else ever since I hung myself in a dream. I got really pissed off and ended up beating my sisters and mother at times. Now all I do is get high, drunk, and head. Sometimes I don’t give a f***. I like to think God sent me to piss the world off. My English teacher kept flunking me in college until I ended up punching her in the face and now I’m expelled. All I do now is go to strip clubs and end up getting thrown out… And I swear sometimes I feel like people are watching me. Visitors… Anyways, 99 percent of my life I was lied to. I just found out my mom does more dope than I do. I told her I’d grow up to be a famous rapper one day, and probably name my first album after her or something. All my life I was very deprived. I ain’t had a woman in years and my palms are too hairy to hide (if you know what I mean). When I was little I used to get so hungry… Mother spent all the money on dope. F*** if I know where dad was. I lay awake at night… Just staring the ceiling wearing a bullet-proof vest I stole once from a police station. Actually, I kind killed my dad in this dream I had. Slit his throat.
Any advice, guys? I feel lost.
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Are you rapping?
If you are, it’s good.
In response to your confession, you do seem to be really lost. I think the first thing you need to do is go to a rehabilitation center and end your addictions. When you do that then you can start thinking straight again and your journey to happiness would have been half way complete.
When you enter rehab, let us know how you’ve changed.
Lilith