I don’t feel whole. As of late I haven’t been feeling the same compared to how I was juts a couple of months ago. Somewhere and I don’t know when I

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I don’t feel whole.
As of late I haven’t been feeling the same compared to how I was juts a couple of months ago. Somewhere and I don’t know when I started to feel like this, but I don’t feel whole. It’s like parts of not only my character but my feelings aren’t intact either. Everything feels dull and lackluster, when I’m happy I don’t feel fully happy, when I’m sad I don’t feel fully sad, when I’m hungry I don’t feel fully hungry, even pain from self harm feels duller. I feel like a light about to go out, the dimming of a fluorescent lightbulb. Everything also seems a lot dimmer, like genuinely it’s as though someone dimmed down the lights. It can still be bright though. I don’t say that in a metaphorical sense I genuinely do see this dimming and brightening, I’m explaining it poorly I swear but it’s true. But back to the whole feeling duller thingy, I just don’t know what to make of it because I’ve always been a very emotional person but when I cry it almost feels forced sometimes but I am sad and I know that I need to cry in that moment so I make it happen, I feel less than human sometimes as well. I don’t know if I’m depressed or something else but I don’t know how to fix this situation or proceed in general. Even in this very moment I will a pain of worry but even it feels wrong, I’m worried that this may affect my relationships. I have a girlfriend and I have had the best moments of my life with her and I don’t want to ruin anything. I wish I was good enough for her, I try so hard for her, but I feel like I’ll never be enough for someone like her. Sorry for the whole tangent.

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Mom’s going to have my frenulum removed. She took me to two women physicians and they are lesbians. One looks a lot like a guy.

They examined my co ck told mom it’s a good idea to snip out my frenulum. My frenulum runs from between the two haves of my co ck head and then down my co ck about an inch along the pink inner foreskin.

They told mom they would cut it all off starting up at the head and running down the shaft. The doctor who looks like a guy told mom that she should remove the inner foreskin altogether. She wants to prune it all so it’s all one color and she said she’d do it so it’s as taunt as a drum. Mom just nodded in approval. The doctor said I approved too because my co ck was sticking up hard.

The physician said they would cauterize it with a hot needle. She said this is what I need to stop my compulsive rubbing and tugging on it. I don’t know what they are going to do to it. The doctor said I’ll appreciate it after it is circumcised again, but this time done correctly. She said it will feel much better after she is done with it and it will be much less of a problem and much less troublesome.

She told mom it will look nicer after all the pink skin is snipped, clipped and removed along with the frenulum and tightened up. Mom said yes it needs to be done.

They wrote stuff in the chart about my co ck and how they are going to cut it. Then mom signed the paper to have it done. Mom said it is her decision to make and she has decided to have it properly pruned. Mom said when the doctors are done it will be the way she wants it.