idk how to feel, but random trauma dump! sooo, just got raped by my older brother! 🥹✌️ let’s f****** cheer (and cry because holy s*** i’m feeling s*****) and that was about seventeen days ago. now, is it weird to admit that i kinda liked it? in shorter words, the explanation is that ever since i got s******* assaulted when i was eight, i’ve been intensely craving s***** contact ever since and really having it… in a way that was not it… is something else.

i don’t know, i feel weird admitting that i enjoyed it. and it’s so bad that i genuinely let him do it another two times, my trauma’s speaking a bit too much right now with admitting this… but idk what to do. this is my fault. i’m ten days late on my f****** period and idk if i’m pregnant, but i hope to god i don’t wake up with morning sickness. idk. i’m too young. i don’t like this, but i can’t stop. 🫩 therapy sounds sweet rn.