I understand, that force of ability. Of god . 😇 The Valleys, eternity. I understand.
I cheated on my ex girlfriend 15 years ago. Back then it did not feel like ‘cheating’ because I did not really like her, but a few years ago I started regretting my past actions. When I think of the pain I caused her, of the blow it might have been to her self-esteem, of the mistrust she must have had of other guys after me, I realized how wrong it was. I don’t think I can ever make up for that sin.
I keep imagining myself bleeding out from my neck and stomach whenever i get angry or sad, it’s not normal, I know that much.
