I rarely say I’m better than anyone, I just do me and am confident that I am.

It’s amazing to me how many people see me as competition or an obstacle to something that I don’t give the slightest s*** about. Maybe I do, slightly, but have long written it off, I’m not even in the game, my interests are in other places , multiple other places but they’re looking at me as if I am something they need to over come to get to something else.

I have never done that. Even, say for example I am with a woman, we are close and she decides she does not want to be around me any more and leaves. Quits talking to me. Writes me off gives me nothing, it’s over. I might be a fool trying to get her back, maybe even for a long time, but I am never looking at who she is with and what she doing with them or even how long they are together for. I don’t care. I don’t even hold it against them. I definitely don’t size them up and know anything about them, I might not even care about what their name is. I keep it to me making myself better. I don’t tear someone else down, I simply make myself better trying to get her back. In many ways. That’s just a statement, but I’m improving everything not just one aspect. I keep it directly between her and I and I don’t pay attention to what’s around her. The only exception is if the other side looks at me or has something to say. THEN you are interrupting me while I’m working on something that is none of your business and I might “deal with you”, but that not my insecurity, it’s that you pissed me off or irritated me. That’s different than insecurity. It’s like walking in on me Ina room when I am in the zone playing/learning something on guitar, you burst in the room with a stupid question, I might f****** kill you. You have irritated me.