what I mean by deception. you dumped your emotional luggage on me, used me, and now you treat me as thin air while you are happy frolicking with one after another, being extra generous to everyone except me. I remembered something: in the beginning, you said “I am going to hurt you”. so you warned me. But why just me? how did I get in your way, was I too cheerful and happy? and do you remember what I said? I said “You cannot hurt me!” you also said: sometimes I need you sometimes I hate you. that is just absurd and irrational. you used me, with no intention to even treat me like a human being. but I didnt imagine how broken you were. I was always real. And you only knew how to play with people.
Mr musician I think you are so insecure that you constantly need another person to compensate for what you lack so people wouldnt notice how incomplete you are. anything but me, just throwing breadcrumbs and laughing. thats so evil, but I look at you and think: poor thing. how can you keep hurting people who love you? whats wrong with you?It was wrong to take advantage of someones´ good will. I know you told your friends I was some crazy b****. that is a deliberate defamation of character. You said you loved me, but there was nothing behind those words, except a boyish desire to take some screenshots and j******* to them. easy to find on the cloud. you continuously lied to me about your relationships with your exes, while still liking all their posts and meeting them. that IS deception. Based on that I pitied you and made you T shirts. But that wasn´t the whole truth, so you committed fraud. but you know what. Im just grateful I didnt end up being your girlfriend. Im grateful that I dont have to spend my life with you. Im grateful that I can see the true value of my friends, my real friends. I never liked your love for oysters and poor innocent octopus or wasting your life on drinking and women when you are so capable and talented. why arent you recording stuff like all your successful exes? scared to flop? Just do it, cmon, who cares if it flops now, it will be history. ) I feel sorry for you because you do hurt the people who get close to you. but not me. Because I love my own life and myself so much, and my energy and source of ideas is infinite. and I also love you infinitely so I forgive you, b******.
