Man, saddest song ever. Styx, Babe (1980). I’m a cheese ball. The thing about that is the year. That song never hit me, I never Thought anything of it, I wasn’t a fan, it just didn’t do anything for me but when it’s applied to that year, 1980 it sounds stupid to say I had a few of those and honestly never knew it at the time. It stupid to say tat that age and all shortly later I had a few of those AT THAT time. I look back at music and it always hits me hard at when it was released. It’s like Christ man that my soul your doing there. Why the f*** are doing that to me? Journey is another one. One I met in around 1980. Probably late 1980, she told me I was kinda cute, you know?…. To which I replied with “…” and it didn’t mean much, I knew it, she wasn’t the first chick, my non blood aunt, married to my uncle, in their 20’s, she loved the hell out of me and I loved every second. I would have let her do anything she wants and not get her in trouble. Hot woman, but that’s besides the point, I knew. So it was not really anything to me. I didn’t go “yuck” I took it as a compliment, even as a kid. She planted a seed. So when I split suddenly with out a babe I’m leaving 6 years later, it may have been a jerk move because we did have a little thing there and wouldn’t let on or show it. So I knew when I left, I just knew she’d damn miss me and think about me. And she did, of course. I may have been her first heartbreak. True. Like a true connection. Not “just kids” so I left thinking “we’ll see…” But it hurt me too. Then my aunt’s playing Journey at night, Greatest Hits while I’m sleeping. I knew what that s*** meant then. She was a fan, a singer, a musician. I almost wondered if she did it on purpose to hit me. I think she went to my school with my mother to get my s*** and I do remember her telling me that one girl was really upset. I was like who? What did she look like? What? I couldn’t tell from her description but she could have been being mean and misleading. Breaking my heart, or keeping it down just because. Music at the time of this s*** blows me away. It’s perfect. What the f*** are you doing to me?
