I am a cutter and I enjoy the thrill of the pain. I have blood on my hands because I am cutting my c*** now.

I took my mother’s fingernail cutter and I cut around my foreskin. Now it’s bleeding. I also put the cutter over the line down my ball sac and squeezed the cutter. That line is bleeding too. It hurt so much. It burned and I felt like I had to pee, but at least I felt the pain.

My balls jumped and contracted up from the pain. My parents make life unbearable for me and the pain is the only escape.

The nurse in the hospital said she was going to circumcise me. I asked if she was going to numb it or just cut it raw. She looked right at me and said she’d just skin it raw with no anesthesia. She said it would be a lot of pain. Oh how I wissssssssssssssh she would have done it. I should have begged her to slice it slowly and peel off strips of my foreskin. She saw the cut marks on my shaft and I’m sure she knew I was cutter.

I wish she would have skinned it completely and circumcised it and made me suffer in agony for a long time. I wish I could go back to her and have her slice it and peel it. I think she’d enjoy doing it and I need the pain. She could stitch it up. It needs cut and sewn. After it heals she could cut it again.

My c*** is erect and the pre-c** is oozing out my opening as the blood seeps out of my foreskin and the line on my balls. I’m going to rub alcohol on it because that will burn and cause more pain. I wonder which will stop flowing first, the pre-c** or the blood.