Tough 2 days at work. Nothing negative, I didn’t get into any trouble or anything, just really busy. Lots, all over, territory. I don’t like to complain, why would I complain about more hours, I would love to be home at 3,sometimes it’s just like “pppffffffffhaaaaaaa…. I don’t want to be here… I have heartburn, I just don’t want to be here today but looking at it from an adult perspective, if I can work 14 hours a day, I should be gladly taking it.
I got sort of “told” I was going up there about 3 years ago, 2 days in advance. I kind of took it in, but actually had no intention of actually going through with it. We do go up there regularly still. Weekly. Day came, I just told my boss, ya know what? I really don’t want to go up there. Why don’t you let this guy go, he wants to go, he does go, let him do it. At the time he has new triplets with his wife, give it to him. And he did. My agreement, because I used to to everything I was asked, including times I was seriously risking my life in a major snowstorm, literally dodging convoys of transports flying past me and jackknifing minutes later, blocking the road, meaning I didn’t get home until 11:00 pm. And this was after already getting stuck in a weird offroad town with all theses cats and none have a tail. Stuck in a ditch from going on an inclined road, stoping on the side, and when I took my foot off the brake, the car slid over. Brake, try something different with the wheel and direction, take my foot off, sucked further moves not the ditch until I finally said “f*** it…I’m doomed anyway, so I released the brake and went into the ditch. Waiting for a tow truck, 3:00 pm snowstorm all day, going to night,
Backhoe of a town worker “Hey… Want me to pull you out?” I said “you know what? Sure…. I don’t care about this truck ATM, if you rip off the bumper? I don’t care. Do er, and he got me out almost after I got stuck rather than wait for a tow truck on a really busy tow truck day. Then the scary dark conditions. I had to pee into a tim Hortons cup there was people everywhere, I didn’t want to wipe it out, I did it in a cup. But that was one of my things. No more out of town. I hated myself then. I did risky stupid s*** then and I did almost die a few times. That was one of the shittiest work days I ever had. I don’t like to get in the habit during nice weather of saying yes, because then you are eligible in shittier days.
I guess my point is not so much to complain, it would be nice to be able to spend some of my downtime with her. I might not say much during the day anywhere, I could, I do blurt things out here, quickly every now and again when I stop, but I sometimes like to go, go, go, go, get er done, go home so I’m not saying much.
