I have been online friends with this guy in Greece (M21). I (F20) live in the states. We’ve been friends for almost three years, and I think I love him. This feeling is so new to me, and I hate it. No matter where I run, he’s there, it’s like… no matter where I turn, I’m always breathing him in. And honestly, I don’t know if he even likes me at all, so I chose not to pursue it and just be his friend. I give him girl advice when he’s having issues and I even encourage him to go after the one he loves. I know, It’s stupid. The more I help him with this s*** the more my heart aches but that’s what friends is for right? And sometimes he flirts with me but says he’s joking, even when he compliments me and it’s not for real, he’s always concerned when im hurt, … Why? Why does he do this? WHY THE F*** DO I PUT HIS FEELINGS BEFORE MINE?! Why? Why do I go soft… just for him?

Can someone please give me advice on how to get rid of this terrifying feeling. Please?

Also I meeting him next year