I don’t think he is on any hormone therapy or treatment or he wouldn’t be able to get erections. They give medication to boys prevent erections when they get circumcised. They gave it to me when Mother decided to have my thing cut and trimmed. Or as Mother would say to have it “fixed”. Fixed the way she wanted it to be.
So they put me on the medication which kept my thing very soft, no erections. You can’t get erect on that medication. Mother checked it and always found it completely soft, just the way she wanted it. She called it her ‘limp noodle’.
The medication was only supposed to be temporary but Mother decided to keep me on it. Mother took me back to the doctor for regular check-ups and she always agreed with Mother that I should stay on the medicine. Mother said I didn’t need erections. She said I should focus on my schoolwork and chores. I didn’t even think about getting erect until the medication ran out. When the medication ran out I did get hard and it was fascinating and brought back memories and urges to rub it. Mother definitely did not want that.
Then Mother would hurriedly take me to see the doctor and she would give Mother more medication so I didn’t get hard. Then I’d always be completely soft and I forgot all about it and my urges were gone. Mother frequently checked it to be sure it was limp and could not be made erect. I was kept on the medication until I was 20 and moved out on my own. When I went off the medication I was often erect at inappropriate times. I was always thinking about s** and I was driven to rub it. I was aggressive, angry and unhappy.
The doctor put me back on the medication and it did make me feel relaxed, normal and free of anxiety. I feel crazy when I’m not on it. I expose myself and I want to r***. All of that tension goes away with the medication. The doctor put a medication patch on my balls and I feel much less emotional discomfort and better overall mental health. I even sleep better. She monitors me and replaces the patches and sometimes gives me injections. I have regular follow-up appointments with her.
The patches and injections give me the extra support I need so I can go back to feeling normal.
