You seemed alone, and In a battle. Sad. Discouraged. In a strange place. I f****** hate myself for it. It didn’t need to be anything. You were alone here, I had friends, hell I brought you with me one time and introduced you, which is out of place for me. I wouldn’t do that with them, not because of you, because of them which shows where my head was at even then with them. Not with anything important. So at the same time, I was technically alone too, why couldn’t I just take you home with me? Even just to be with someone. I had a big area to myself. It’s you. Do you think any of my family would’ve thought negative or think anything at all, of that? Christ. What to you think? It’s you. Just think about that. Come on. Not with sleezy intent on my part, either but then again, whatever. Whatever or not. Just saying. And it’s true, just to be with someone. Wanna sit and do nothing? My head was wrong. Wrong. It’s like bad timing. Just had freaking timing. A person can’t change their head about certain things, ways of thinking, life, feeling, I didn’t like myself much. You can, but it takes some work. It’s not a quick process. I didn’t get a grip on any type of direction until I was 27. Doing alright now. Good. Working on a few things, nobody’s perfect but I’m in control anyway. If I feel like I do today, things would have been much different then when it comes to me and the way I act.
