Not sure if I needed to go through the immense pain I felt elsewhere after, what I literally stumbled into, wasn’t even looking for, but it’s like they say it is part of me. It made me what I am. it toughened me up no doubt. The entire thing and everything after was a crash course in how to be a man in a lot of ways. That’s the way I look at it. Shit I was never really taught by anyone up to that point including my parents and I carry it all with me to this day.
Not sure if I needed it, or didn’t need it. I think I may have needed it tbh.