I always never cease to amaze myself the women and girls whose trust and respect I earn. There’s never any ulterior motives on my part, I’m not looking for anything. I’m never thinking anything nefarious, I’m not like that. I just surprise myself. It’s probably no big deal, I’ve just been in presence of too many really s***** people who all have their own fucked up agenda I get dragged into some abnormal ugly s*** and everything ends up, well, ugly. I end up feeling nasty and ugly because sometimes I need to be so when things are normal and real it takes me by surprise when it shouldn’t. It’s the way things should be.
