I feel weird. Disappointed, tired, not appreciated. Like, I don’t like myself lol. But I thought my family would always love me. But they literally have put me at their lowest priority. I’m easy, I’m boring. “She can take of herself” or “whatever, we don’t need to invite her. She would just bring the whole mood down.”
For example, a little bit ago I had a bad stomachache and literally no one cared to get me meds from the store or even ice water. I had to take care of myself.
Another time, it was raining pretty bad. I had flip flops on to quickly grab the ma since no one else will. The strap broke to one of my shoes and I fell into a muddy puddle, hurting my knee pretty bad I dragged my a** back to the house and told my sister what happened. She said I was being overdramatic and just take a shower already. I remember just going to thr bathroom and crying badly that day.
It’s like, I’m alone. Like, really alone. I only have myself to count on. I can’t count on anyone else to see me as a priority.
So strange… this is a completely different feeling from the typical loneliness I feel. I really can’t put a name to this all.
