I have so many ex friends with benefits and they are all bitter even after years of no contact even though they usually broke it off, which I was alright with, except one which I can think of that I vanished on before any of them many many years ago. Which is fine. I was never fully into it anyway. Life goes on.
I just find it funny. Like the one yesterday. Reaches across the seat over (what I assume is her step son) to give me a hand gesture, to which I reply with a blank stare, and then back to what I was doing immediately after she passes by with literally not a second thought. Maybe a shrug of the shoulders and a contemplation about what I’m having for dinner that night. Maybe a craving I can’t shake for a coffee and an everything bagel with garlic/herb cream cheese and bacon at my next stop. None of them can just act like it never happened and we don’t know each other? They all need to throw some kind of insult or try to get under my skin somehow, which makes me laugh because I don’t care at all. I don’t care one way or another. I care so little I don’t even have the energy to give them the middle finger. I literally laugh my a** off every time it happens because it’s completely uncalled for. You’re gonna have to do much better than that with the s*** I have been hit with. You’d need to dig up my grandfather’s skeleton and have s** with it in front of me to care even a little bit and even then I might not care. If you were happy, content or moved on, you should be able to not care enough to spit at me. I don’t mind if you look on your way by, maybe contemplate quietly to yourself on the way by for 5 seconds but why hiss and spit? I don’t even care. Not in the least. Some hiss and spit, some seemingly try to make me jealous with their significant others l(ike the one I disappeared on), some stalk me and try to cause s*** by getting with losers that only causes them baggage they can never get rid of, it’s fucked up. But mostly, it’s funny. I have super thick skin, especially if I don’t care. I’m dead inside. It just bounces off me. Been there, done that, too old to care at the moment, tbh. I don’t have the drive or snap any more.
They all hate me 🙂 which is alright I guess. Completely unhealthy for them, but alright.
